On A Mission To Achieve My Life’s Purpose.

I’m 34. 7 months in and 5 months shy of 35, and I’m depressed. What am I doing with my life? This is a question I have been asking myself for nearly 10 years. I should have a degree. I should have a home. I should have 3 kids, a spouse and maybe some kind of exotic animal. Unfortunately, I have none of those things.

Here’s a synopsis of my life thus far; I am an original college dropout who suffers from serial procrastination. I have been in and out of Universities and/or community colleges within the past 9 years, majoring in everything from Psychology to Nuclear Medicine. I haven’t had a dream of “being” anything since I was 10. So as for what I wanted to be when I grew up…crickets.

“I have wasted the past 10 years of my life trying to figure out what I want to be, when in reality I don’t want to BE anything.”

What I want is to “do.” I want to do things, see things, go places, and create something. I was not created to BE anything; I already was who I was meant to be. That name on the birth certificate; that bubbling personality, charm and yes, the procrastinator. To be is to exist. Doing involves a sense of purpose. So as lame as it may sound I’m on a mission to achieve my life’s purpose. Just shy of turning 35 and I finally realized what I want to do with my life. Now let’s see if I can put the pieces together in less than 6 years, because I can’t do this shit again in my 40’s.

3 thoughts on “On A Mission To Achieve My Life’s Purpose.”

  1. Awesome piece. I know you’re not alone. I can speak from personal experience. When I found that the outside world wasn’t helping me find out what I wanted to do with my life I decided to create what I needed within my life. I believe it’s one of the best decisions I made. Thanks for sharing.

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  2. Thank you so much for sharing. So many of us are clocking in and out of jobs we hate, just wandering and searching aimlessly for our true purpose… We all know we have one; its just figuring out what it is and what plane, train or automobile to take to get there… its inspiring to know I am not alone.. ☺️

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    1. I am glad you can relate. It’s sad to see so many people living the “American Dream” because it is what is expected of them. I wish we could all realize our passions and live out our dreams. We would live in a gentler, happier society.


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